Writing to release the building, internal pressure
Me, myself, and I, talking to my Pagecord blog.
This is my first attempt at emailing to publish. I figure I might as well give it a try, since it's how the founder Olly uses it and also Sylvia.
I've been enjoying her posts a lot, and love the feature of the weekly digest.
Although I invested into a year with Ghost premium, I still can't shake how Pagecord just feels more lightweight for my needs. But I'm attached to the membership options of Ghost.
I'm just rambling, really, about how I feel like I chose the wrong medium, but it's also valuable to make a wrong decision. Better than making no decision which was where I felt like I was idling in.
Writing this out in email format does feel different, like I'm sending an email to meant for one person and that's it. And maybe that makes it more intimate, less pressure, which encourages more authenticity. More spilling of the beans and baring your soul.
Which is what I ultimately need. A release on the pressure cooker machine that is sometimes my brain. Writing always gets it out.
I don't want to have to optimize or worry about marketability or even regret how vulnerable I was. I just want my writing to be and to exist and if it helps someone else (because it surely helps me), then great.
Maybe I need to get back to basics and I'm pretending that I don't already know this. Maybe I'm stuck in the over-optimizing and future-bility of something that it's extracting from me instead of nurturing me.
My finances are improving where I'll be able to justify another blog premium if it serves me better, anyway.
Decisions, decisions, decisions.
Yet here this blog stands, and I am better for it. Thankful for it. Grateful that it exists and that it continues growing and developing. I don't have any children, but it does feel pride-making watching it grow!
To continued growth and health.
Write back soon!
Thanks for being here.
Sincerely,
Nadine ♥
This is my first attempt at emailing to publish. I figure I might as well give it a try, since it's how the founder Olly uses it and also Sylvia.
I've been enjoying her posts a lot, and love the feature of the weekly digest.
Although I invested into a year with Ghost premium, I still can't shake how Pagecord just feels more lightweight for my needs. But I'm attached to the membership options of Ghost.
I'm just rambling, really, about how I feel like I chose the wrong medium, but it's also valuable to make a wrong decision. Better than making no decision which was where I felt like I was idling in.
Writing this out in email format does feel different, like I'm sending an email to meant for one person and that's it. And maybe that makes it more intimate, less pressure, which encourages more authenticity. More spilling of the beans and baring your soul.
Which is what I ultimately need. A release on the pressure cooker machine that is sometimes my brain. Writing always gets it out.
I don't want to have to optimize or worry about marketability or even regret how vulnerable I was. I just want my writing to be and to exist and if it helps someone else (because it surely helps me), then great.
Maybe I need to get back to basics and I'm pretending that I don't already know this. Maybe I'm stuck in the over-optimizing and future-bility of something that it's extracting from me instead of nurturing me.
My finances are improving where I'll be able to justify another blog premium if it serves me better, anyway.
Decisions, decisions, decisions.
Yet here this blog stands, and I am better for it. Thankful for it. Grateful that it exists and that it continues growing and developing. I don't have any children, but it does feel pride-making watching it grow!
To continued growth and health.
Write back soon!
Thanks for being here.
Sincerely,
Nadine ♥